confescating the night.

female insecurtities, have got to be a hoax, it's honestly rediculous, how some girls can see them selves, and the difference of how people see them.

"Lend me your ears and ill sing you a song
and I'll try not to sing out of key"






I get by with a little help from my friends.

I'm a thousand miles from home, I couldn't be more happy, and I couldn't be more miserable.

It's a horrible, horrible confusing feeling.

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Im on the edge of starting my monthly flow, to whomever cares.

its funny you never notice your crazy mood swings until your hanging out with a completely different family who you cant just freak out at, for no absolute reason.

seriously the stupidest shit is pissing me off

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Too anyone who is curious, Yes, I am still dating that Mike boy, 2 years in december.

crazy crazy

yesterday he asked me if he thought we were going to be together forever.

I do.

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I miss a couple of my friends pretty badly right now, I dont know what it is, I feel as if, I have no girlfriends right now, to talk to anyone about dramamamama. ugh haha.

dont even get me started on that though, its rediculous.

theres this one guy that i miss quite a bit, he used to be one of my bestfriend in the whole world.

wonder why we grew apart.

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I seriously need to create a couple of new playlists on playlist. ahahah, nvm, anyways I started one that was about oldies songs, examples of music on there would be 'mickey' if anyone remembers that song, also featuring things like avril lavigne, too the goo goo dolls, crazy shit basically.

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anyways, im on a pretty important vacation, NOT ONCE, have I gotten completely wasted.

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i miss my freaking dog, horribly

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regardless, im so fucking bitchy right now, Id probably kill my own mother just for saying hi to me right now, ohh god.

have a good night.

'im completely alone at a table of friends.'

its definitely been hard.

am i still living my life ?

yes, yes I am

do I want to live a life with him

yes I do.

"do you love me?"

"yes"

"good, I will always love you"

"of the man that I used to be"
lay down your guns, cut me from ear to ear.
EYE FOR AN EYE

Asking Alexandra- I was once possibly maybe..

It's a decent song.
Also

most probably already know
Hit the Switch - By none other than, BRIGHT EYES.

across my skin

I'm very excited.
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My beautiful cousins,and I :)

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"You told me you would never let me forget"

protect me from what I want.

have you ever been in love ?

not in lust, in love.

I have, I am.

I dont think I will ever lose this.

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His name is Mike, oddly enough

were both left handed.

been seeing eachother for 3 years.

he is very beautiful.

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Cool Fact : women's hearts beat faster than men's.

Who do you love ? Who will you love ?

!@#

check out the song Estrella.

im sure most will love it.

how beautiful the view was when I was blind.

" we're all addicted to something that takes away the pain "

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Its like everyday, you lose less interest in me, like somehow, in my sleep, i lost my sparkle, what is wrong? why dont you get excited anymore? why dont you rush to kiss me, maybe I had a restless sleep.

is someone getting the best of you ?

Its starting to feel weird, and different.

Should I keep fighting?

I do love him

I love him very much.

right?


"you should know by now, that im not here for , take, take,take"

I love this picture

I love this picture.

for many reason's just look at it,

do you like it ?

look at them, with all of their empty thoughts

don't forget;

don't remember.

where is your pride?

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"sometimes I still need you."

Angus & Julia Stone, and A Fine Frenzy

If your into those slow indie songs with a lot of meaning
--- ahahahaha, jk
this is a really good song

Paper Aeroplane- Angus and Julia Stone.
They have some incredibly beautiful music

I spilled the ink across the page trying to spell your name
So I fold it up and i flick it out
Paper Aeroplane
It wont fly the seven seas to you
Cause It didnt leave my room
But it awaits the hands of someone else
The garbage man
Got to say mmm mmm mmm
So he opens it up and reads it out to all his friends
Amongst the crowd a heart will break and a heart will mend
He walks on home tired from work
The letter falls from his hand
He reaches out only to catch the sky
Its gone with the wind
Got to say mmm mmm mmm
I spilled the ink across the land
Trying to spell your name
UP and down there it goes
Paper AeroplaneIt hasnt flown the seven seas to you
But its on its wayIt goes through the hands
Then to someone else
To find you girl
Got to say mmm

if you enjoy this song check out, Big Jet Plane by them
that one is my favorite.

If you dont know " A fine frenzy" get to know.
The singer is beautiful
all time favorite, check it out: Goodbye My almost Lover.


"I love you more than the moon and the ocean"

you could call it appreciation, or you could call it luck

Thank you for saying you were sorry, cause you really needed too
ofcourse i still love you. dont ever doubt that.

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this post, she should know who she is,
first of all the day you told me that i say nothing but rude things to you
i knew that was when our friendship was finally over.
i realize your going through a very rough time right now, that doesnt make it fair of you to treat me like that.
You let her run your life, and thats not anyone's problem
I'm sorry were not bestfriends anymore, and im sorry to say thats your fault

"I'm going back home to the west coast"

yeah im scared.
you have so many other personalities that there hard to keep track of
dont push yourself away from me, if you dont believe , than don't believe.
speak to me, learn how to open up, because i miss your real smile.
i still look at and love you the same way, and I fear I always will.

my biggest fear is I'll never stop, and you'll stop soon.

" well i'd never want to see you unhappy, I thought you would want the same for me"

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"cause without me, you got it all."

take it the way i gave it to you.

The difference between me and you, is, our love.
theres always someone who loves the other more than the other one loves the----- and the whole cycle around that.

and to this point i still have not figured out who loves who most.
while im with you im still trying to find out who I am, Im trying to grow with in my self, and within this realtionship, to make it better for both of us.

try helping me once and while, its time for you to man up, and shape up.
because i cant grow with someone who is so stuck.


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weird? right? I havent written a blog in a very long time, and it feels good, I'm sitting in my credit recovery right now, slackin' oh weelllll
anyways.
Ill update you more that is for certain.

Your expectations for a failure are to high

seriously, kayli, I think now, you just set yourself up for dissapointment.
whatever.
I'll get over it.